A Lonely Christmas

Christmas is a time to spend with the people you love right? Well, I'll be with most of those people I guess, but not with John....my love. Sad really. He left for home just an hour ago, and now I should be greatful for the time I have to study for my aweful anatomy final, yet all I can do is think about missing John for the next 2 weeks. Even a day or two is hard enough. It's weird to think that we went a month with out seeing eachother over the summer, but that was rediculously hard, two weeks is my limit. After that, phone calls just aren't good enough. I start forgetting the way I feel, and why I love him, and I start losing it all together, that is when you move on. Luckely that difficult month past and the moment I saw him, all the love feelings floaded right back in. But that was early in the relationship. Its been over 8 months now. Two weeks is like 2 months. Feels so long.
I'm trying to think of what I did in my spare time that I would now spend with John.

1. I spent a lot of time at the gym. (besides work, class, and the library)
2. I spent extra time socializing with a million different friends, going country and salsa dancing, trying to meet as many people as possible.
3. Going out to lunch, dinner, and movies with friends
4. taking road trips with my girl friends
5. Just living the single life I guess.

Some people can't break away from that cycle. Or some people miss it and end up breaking relationships to go back to the single life.

Me? I'm moving on. I didn't think I'd ever get sick of dating around and exploring all the options or going to parties; but when John and I recently went to a friends "christmas party".. it was nice, but just another college singles party where everybody dresses up in their most fashionabley/hot clothing, eating treats and non-alcoholic drinks (thats BYU). They all just look at everyone else. The girls or guys may scope out thier competition and leave if they don't find enough of the opposite sex. They'll critique eachothers clothing and hair and, try to come up with interesting and witty things to say to one another. They'll talk about what they are studying, or ask where they are from and chat about finals, or how much money they'll make some day, or how much money they made over the summer selling security systems. Some may be truely intested in others and try to get their friends to introduce eachother, maybe get a number or two, plan to do something that they found they both enjoyed, go out, but found that the roommate was way cooler.

Its all fun for a while, but its actually quite exhausting, and in my case its a relief when you find someone you are very compatable with, and someone you would rather spend your free time with.

It'll be a lonely Christmas indeed.

Boyfriends Thanksgiving

The pictures are all backwards, starting from my last day in Cali, to the first day... sorry about that, I don't really want to switch them around.. ha ha

Romantic Moments on the beach... this is what happens when I want take a picture.

We found the hot tub at John's moms condo with some bubbles in it, and when we turned on the jets IT WENT CRAZY! So we got all excited and made the best of the situation, hoping that we wouldn't get blamed for it.

On the way home from Knotts Berry Farm (I was still sick from Thanksgiving day) I fell asleep, so John found my heart sticky notes in my purse and covered me with them as I was snoozing in the car. It was actually a funny and pleasent surprise when I woke up. Not only were they all over me, but he surrounded the area of the car around me... funny boy!

In line at Knotts Berry Farm, I actually wasn't feeling well since I was throwing up on Thanksgiving day, but John has many brilliant ways of making me feel better.

John with his best friend Corb, funniest guys I know! It was an

entertaining vacation watching these crazy boys interact.

John, Corb, and another buddy Spencer played in their

High schools Alumni basketball game, they were the oldest guys out there,

and even though they lost.... they still proved a point.. (not sure what that point is though ha ha)

Knotts Berry Farm

This is me forcing John to take a picture in front of the Huge Christmas Tree :)

John's sister Julia came home for the holiday's as well,

and did an excellent job with the holiday turkey.

This is Holtsman, John's nephew.

He was attatched to John most of the time. What a cutie pie!

L.A Auto Show, it was actually pretty fun dreaming about owning all these beautiful cars.

John's mother Sally aka Sal, great lady.

Holt is learning spanish at a young age which is adorable, John is reading him a spanish book.